Many people wrote in the comments as well as in emails that they were looking for experiences similar to what I described in this article. I am compelled to post this update after I read Mr. Rajendrakumar’s unfortunate personal experience (see comments section) from practicing the mantra on this page without proper guidance. This article was written with the intention of sharing my experience only, but it was never my intention that it would be taken as a technique (I never gave the steps of using the mantra in this page). I did not write this article lightly. I deliberated putting this on my site for more than three months and put it up only after inner push. Also, note that this experience was more than couple of years old from the date of publication of this article. My only intention in writing this article was to express that the Siddhars are available on the inner planes if we need help. If you really want the proper technique of chanting the mantra, you need to go to http://www.SivaYoga.org/ and get it from them.One size does not fit all. Not all techniques are for everybody. If you really want, try a technique for short periods of time (like, 5 minutes per day) for about three days. If the technique is not pleasant and give you joy, but causes distress, then the technique is not for you.
Please also note that if you are chanting mantra or doing a technique with an intention of having a particular spiritual experience, then that desire may be coming from ego which could cause physical and mental distress. You need to approach any technique with humility and surrender to the divine and let the divine give you whatever experience you need to grow.
Bhakthi or Surrender to the Divine is important. May be your first practice should be just that — Surrender to your favorite form of the divine. If you need to do a specific technique, you will be guided to it and you will not feel the conflicts created by ego at that point. This was the case with me.
Listen to your inner longing (this is not the ego’s desire to have an experience and feel good). Just because someone else is doing it or someone had some experience and you want to reproduce that experience, is the wrong approach. Having spiritual experiences is not the goal. Experiences occur on their own accord depending on what each person needs to learn and gain wisdom. You can derive inspiration from others experiences, but not try to replicate them.
Develop Self-love and Self-acceptance. When you develop these two, things will appear to you as needed for your evolution and you will not face any issues with your practice. With Self-love and Self-acceptance, you will also gain the wisdom of love and acceptance for others.
Be gentle with yourself. Treat your body/mind temple as you would treat a temple you visit — with love and devotion. If you are feeling uncomfortable and sick, then body is telling you to just stop. No guilt needed. Just stop.
In February 2005, I took initiation into Level-1 of Babaji’s Kriya Yoga and in April 2005, into Level-2. In Level-2, we were given a list of names of siddhas (meaning, “perfected beings”) and deities—all are infinite intelligences—and we were told the qualities of each intelligence. We were asked to choose based on what resonated with us and what qualities we wanted to invoke within ourselves, at that time. We got initiated into one mantra of our choice from that list. When they described the list, one of the descriptions was about siddhar tirumUlar (from now on I will use the more popular spelling and form, “Thirumoolar”). However, I did not take that mantra at that time, instead I got attracted to the mantra of Lord Muruga (also known as, skanda, kArtikEya, kumara, sanat kumara and subramanya). He is also known as, “The Lord of Siddhas.”
Few months passed. Around early June 2005, I happened to be at my friend’s (he is also my music teacher) place, as he was giving a lecture-demonstration on Ayurvedic cooking. (yummy!) When we were all eating, he started talking to somebody and I happened to be nearby. I overheard him talk about how he got a message from Thirumoolar to do an internet search for a certain, “51 syllable Siva mantra,” so he can practice and teach to his music students. He had not started to teach that mantra, yet. This time, I strangely got attracted to the name “Siddhar Thirumoolar.” But, I did not ask about it. I felt, if I needed it, I would surely get it somehow. After that I forgot about it completely.
A couple of days later, I started to get this urge to find this mantra. I thought that I was just making it up. So, I ignored it. I kept getting this thought constantly. One week passed. I was just seeing, if that was just a random thought and would pass. But, it was not, and I could not resist it any longer. So, I googled, the terms, “51 syllable Siva mantra Thirumoolar.” The first site that popped up was, Thirumoolar’s Siva Yoga site. Here, I found the following mantra (also available in Tirumandiram (Vol 2, Verse 946)):Om
Si va ya na ma
ya na va Si ma
ma va ya na Si
Si ya na ma va
va Si ma ya na
For further details on this mantra and Siva yoga, visit the site. I practiced this mantra for about five minutes everyday, with the intent of contacting Siddhar Thirumoolar. Barely a week had passed. Then, on July 10, 2005, I had the following vision. I am quoting my journal entry below, with a few grammatical and spelling corrections.
Contact with Siddhar Thirumoolar (July 10, 2005)
Early this morning, I had a profound awakening from sleep. I didn’t know, if I was dreaming or awake. I saw red lasers emitting from my third eye. At the other end of the rays, there was a figure the half the size of my little finger. The figure was burning red surrounded by intense flames the color of the sun. I couldn’t make out who that was.
The figure said, “Your third eye is open and I want to enter.”
My head was already feeling burning hot from the flames from the figure.
I asked, “Who are you? Why should I let you in?”
Then, the figure said, “I am Thirumoolar and I want to help you.”
To that I said, “I surrender. Please help me.”
At that moment I saw my forehead split open. For a brief period I saw a bearded man in that opening. My head became unbearably hot. But, I was not afraid at all.
Then, the scene changed. I saw myself climbing the stairs in our home. My wife was coming down.
She asked, “Why are you like that?”
I replied, “Thirumoolar entered me. I am going to the pooja (meditation) room. I will talk to you after that.”
Then, the scene changed again. I found myself in Tiruchanoor (my native place in India). My father, my uncle and several other elders were sitting in a circle with piles of papers in front of them.
I asked, “What is all this?”
My father answered, “We are translating scriptures in Tamil to English.”
I was about leave and my father asked, “I forgot your guru’s name. What is it?”
I smiled and said, “Thirumoolar.” I left the room.
The vision ended there and no more after that.
In the morning, I was contemplating, if Kriya Babaji arranged for me to meet Siddhar Thirumoolar. A voice arose in me that said, “Obey Thirumoolar. He is also your guru.” I said to myself, “Okay.” The contemplation ended there.
Siddhar Thirumoolar is full of divine love and compassion. He is fiery in nature, like the brilliant sun, burning away the darkness of ignorance in me.
In few days after I got this vision, I received a message to get initiated into Siva yoga offered from the website mentioned above. As of writing this article, I have been initiated into and practicing Step-4.
I hope this article serves as an inspiration to any of you who are interested in contacting the great Siddhar Thirumoolar to ask for help on your path to self-mastery, enlightenment and ascension. Great ascended masters like him are available all around us to guide us in our quest for Truth.
I would like to extend some link love to the following blogs:
- Albert Foong—The Urban Monk. You can read great articles like, The Value of Cooperation in Achieving Success.
- Anmol Mehta—The Meditation Master. On his blog you can learn meditations like, Prosperity & Infinite Energy Meditation Technique – Free Guided Meditation Book for Daily Practice – Ch 5.
- My recent find: Shift Your Spirits—Slade Roberson. Here you can read insightful articles such as, How Do Your Spirit Guides Respond to You?.